Hello,
 I’ve grown and matured. Before and then for a while in my first relationship sex was a huge thing to me. I was so sure that I was going to wait till marriage to have sex, not for religious reasons but because I thought it should’ve been something you saved for someone you knew you loved and wanted to be with. In this case, I start doing BDSM sex with BDSM flogger, that I recently buy :)